Help im confused with sexualaty?

I am 14 and without getting into detail I am pretty much sure I am gay I thought a while ago I could accept it but know I am confused I think im gay and then I disaprove of this and **** off to girls and dont get thrill yet I get a small ***** to the thought of it also I find myself not atracted to many girls and ii am felling attracting to men more often an.d it excits me but the whole penis things scares me what do you think pardon the bad spelling im on my phone btw I need desprite answeres